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Triggering eating disorder statements
Dear Bee, An alcoholic in recovery is often encouraged to analyze his or her environment and adjust it to avoid triggers, setbacks, and possible obstacles. Because…why make life harder?! For this...
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Pulling myself out of this funk
Dear Bee, It is 9:12am. I worked out and just ate a satisfying breakfast…and I already want to binge. That’s just wonderful. These past three days have made me so irritable, frustrated, and annoyed. I...
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Processing the binge (as much as I don’t want to)
Dear Bee, Here is my double-edged sword. Too many important people know about our relationship. And they want to know every little detail. They want to know how we interact, what you say to me, how I...
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what’s it going to be?
Today, I don’t want to sit with feelings. Or maybe I just don’t know how to. I don’t want to deal with my family. Or maybe I just don’t know how to. I don’t want to treat myself with kindness. Or...
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Eating disorders make bad situations turn into worse situations.
Dear Bee, How is harming yourself going to make the situation better? Simple question, but a tricky one to wrap my head around, especially when my eating disorder was my coping mechanism for so many...
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When FEAR FOODS are everywhere!
Dear Bee, I’m watching my parents’ house this week. My brother is probably the most “normal” eater I’ve ever met, and sometimes, I watch him, amazed at his simultaneous passion for food and complete...
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Setbacks matter, but reactions to the setbacks matter more.
Dear Bee, Yesterday afternoon was hard. Yep. We had a minor setback. The context: I’ve been dealing with anxiety and struggling with acceptance. I wrote about this yesterday. During these heightened...
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Between clients
Dear Bee, Where are so many people canceling this week? Not cool. On the bright side, I’ll be out of here early. I can’t believe I’ve only been doing this gig for a month and I’ve already seen such a...
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The anatomy of eating disorder recovery
In a nutshell, You’re going to fall down. A lot. You’ll probably hit an extreme rock bottom, maybe one that’s lower than the rock bottom you thought you reached when you were sick, and you’ll wonder...
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binge.
Dear Bee, Today, I woke up in my boyfriend’s arms. I went to a recognition ceremony for a wonderful nonprofit group that I run. I did yoga. I studied for my finals. I laughed with family. I binged....
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Big Lunches.
Dear Bee, One of my clients is hinting emotional eating tendencies. She’s also an alcoholic. She struggles with compulsion and often finds herself compensating “one vice for another.” This is hard. I...
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I hate this part right here.
Dear Bee, This is the part I hate. The owning-up-to-the-fucking-up. Even though I have some sense of anonymity on this blog, I still want to be that shining star who succeeds in recovery, who doesn’t...
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fighting the good fight.
Dear Bee, I’m writing this letter knowing that I’m probably going to binge later. I’ve already started a bit. Just because I feel so tense and so out of control and so all over the place, and I don’t...
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fuck this man.
I’m tired of people dying. I’m tired of food. I’m fucking tired of eating and UNSURPRISINGLY eating is all I want to fucking do. Numb out the pain. Jump into the only form of suffering I’m actually...
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